♥Is it Me ?♥,
Friday, April 30, 2010 @ 1:04 PM
Well my blog had been really really really dead for a very long time and i'm really lazy to update it..Therefore to make up for it, i'm write a journal well a manual one, like with pen and book stuff..
It's not for anyone to read it's only for me but i may, may let the one tt is close to me to read it.. The one whom i can trust with everything, the one whom i noe would nt leav me no matter wat..Sadly i dun have anyone tt trusted next to me.. Well it's true tt i've got Alexandria, Faz and of course Rahim.. But wat i write in it is deep and some are juz too sensitive and kinda personal. So i dun really noe hu to open up to... I don't wanna do the same mistake again! I don't wanna fall again! I dun't want to lose all tt i trusted , i dun want to cry again. i dun wanna be hurt.. i can't take the same hurt anymore.. i'm happy wif wat i'e got, my friends, my family, my life, my bez buds, Alez, Faz and Rahim. Ppl can walk out coz of ridiculos reasons but i noe tt they won't i'd love them and my family with all my life, i got back Bruno. In a different state.. We'e may think tt we are better well maybe i may think tt we are better, but i noe tt we are not.. I dun the feel the difference in my life juz as before when he was in it before he left.. He was my friend whom i thought would never walk out of me, he promised tt he would never walk out of me and tt he would never break our friendship. But all fell apart. He walked out of our friendship he took his promises along, he took my happiness along.. I was lost for soo long,i cried, i was hurt badly. I talked to Rahim and said tt He was nt a good friend.. I'm really glad to have rahim. We may fight for small things but we are always better in thwe end! XOXO! I always think tt i'm alone in this world and tt i dun really have anyone with me but i'm always forgetting to turn around, to turn around and see tt they have always been there.. Ppl may think tt i'm being all closed up and personal bout stuffs, but i'm doing tt coz i feel much more safe and better tt way. Coz i've trusted someone before and i'e opened up before but they were all lost and turned into nothing but plain words.. I had been left bleeding half way, i was juz left there to bleed and be cured by myself. I would never forget tt.. But if there is someone out there who can make me belief in the word called trust, then maybe i maybe fully cured.. Till then i'll still be bleeding out.Labels: ♥ is tt even the truth anymore??