{♥} Tell Me Why {♥}

♥Is it Me ?♥

2010-04-30T13:04:00.005+08:00

Well my blog had been really really really dead for a very long time and i'm really lazy to update it..Therefore to make up for it, i'm write a journal well a manual one, like with pen and book stuff..
It's not for anyone to read it's only for me but i may, may let the one tt is close to me to read it.. The one whom i can trust with everything, the one whom i noe would nt leav me no matter wat..Sadly i dun have anyone tt trusted next to me.. Well it's true tt i've got Alexandria, Faz and of course Rahim.. But wat i write in it is deep and some are juz too sensitive and kinda personal. So i dun really noe hu to open up to... I don't wanna do the same mistake again! I don't wanna fall again! I dun't want to lose all tt i trusted , i dun want to cry again. i dun wanna be hurt.. i can't take the same hurt anymore.. i'm happy wif wat i'e got, my friends, my family, my life, my bez buds, Alez, Faz and Rahim. Ppl can walk out coz of ridiculos reasons but i noe tt they won't i'd love them and my family with all my life, i got back Bruno. In a different state.. We'e may think tt we are better well maybe i may think tt we are better, but i noe tt we are not.. I dun the feel the difference in my life juz as before when he was in it before he left.. He was my friend whom i thought would never walk out of me, he promised tt he would never walk out of me and tt he would never break our friendship. But all fell apart. He walked out of our friendship he took his promises along, he took my happiness along.. I was lost for soo long,i cried, i was hurt badly. I talked to Rahim and said tt He was nt a good friend.. I'm really glad to have rahim. We may fight for small things but we are always better in thwe end! XOXO! I always think tt i'm alone in this world and tt i dun really have anyone with me but i'm always forgetting to turn around, to turn around and see tt they have always been there.. Ppl may think tt i'm being all closed up and personal bout stuffs, but i'm doing tt coz i feel much more safe and better tt way. Coz i've trusted someone before and i'e opened up before but they were all lost and turned into nothing but plain words.. I had been left bleeding half way, i was juz left there to bleed and be cured by myself. I would never forget tt.. But if there is someone out there who can make me belief in the word called trust, then maybe i maybe fully cured.. Till then i'll still be bleeding out.

Happy Valentines Day ! ♥

2010-02-14T21:19:00.004+08:00

Pictures Taken at Sufi's Bdae on friday :) Hahas actually there are more, only uploaded 2 of them. lols.. It was fun man, we danced played wif flour, well i din play wif flour i was wearin black the guys played wif flour, while WE gurls danced. hahas, the cake was Delicious!! Well after all that walked back home coz hm was only walking distance away, on the way hm say Jayjayboy on the way home frm sufi's also.. So ya he joined me and we walked hm. Happy belated Bdae Sufi!!

Oh Baby !! Today's Valentines Day!! But sadly i din have a valentine, lol..

No body asked me ah, today was kinda bumpy, quarreled wif parents coz of an outing matter.

Well decided to go picinc at sembawang wif jayjayboy, rahim, hakim, Tzemin and Fatimah..

But daddy was like tt place is soo unclean wif spirits and stuff. So i gt angry tt my idea gt turned down.. so i thought bout it and cooled down and decided of lunch and movie instead..

Asked mum bout it and she was like "ur soo cunnning" and i was like WTH! I'm cunnin? eu have to be kidding me man! Well yeah... Umm soo i went for eucharist and stuff, after tt i asked daddy again bout the movie, and for a second i had a feeling tt he thought tt i was going on a date wif my boyfriend or something. lol! hahas well i dun have a boyfriend anyway. haiz, big deal! soo yeah tt's how today ended, texted and listened to music and stuff.. OhOH! Forgot, my dad allowed me to go!! yes, watching Percy Jackson and the lightning Thief ! Man but i'm broke man... i've to get cash, Hey Piggy bank! GTG ♥

Boy ur Dangerous!

2010-02-05T21:59:00.003+08:00

Love....... 4 letters but a Huge responsibility.
Lols nope i'm nt in love and i dun have a boyfriend, juz being random. But the picture relates alot. Today was a tiring day. Had sch as normal, had POA test, Geography Test, and as usual like any other friday, campcraft competition practice, the competition is only 3 weeks away! and we're nt even fast enough. Soo much of pressure, my school's a Gold unit for the past 3 yr's and every cadet plays a part in it's excelence. i dun wanna let my team and Angela Mam down.
It's nt tt i'm in an important role or something.. It's juz tt i wanna do my part. Reached home today 7, ate oreo, showered, ate dinner texted Khairul and now i'm here.. I still have a pile of homework to be done, sec 3 life is very tiring and tough, and it's painful at times to keep up. I still have T-accounting to do for 4 Sections of POA questions, math ex 2.3-2.5, english comprehension and dunno somemore, it's juz soo difficult to keep up when ur soo filled. I'm soo tired of going to sch, sst home , homework and sleep and tt continuous motion in life. It' s soo meaningless and boring. I dun really get the time to even sit and watch the tv wif a free mind. My mind's always "oh shot eu forgot tt hw" and stuff.. It's constant working make me worn out.
well i'm tryin my best to hold myself together and to get things done quick and on time. Dam common test is like juz around the corner.. I juz wanna cry, for the shit load of work for nt havin a valentine yet.. lolz well life is juz much more complicated wen eu grow up right? .. Well i'm pulling myself up to cope with all this homework and valentines day shit .
My day would get better, i juz wanna have a day when i'm out wif my gurls and guys and juz chillin and nt worryin tt much bout anything.. doubt tt would happen. Hear my prayers oh Lord! ... UN♥ED

LOL

2010-01-24T12:38:00.002+08:00

Man................
I've nt blogged for like ages man!!
Well wen i was away (frm e com), i went for sec 3 camp in sch, campcraft competition practices
and of course tonns of homework!
Well today is a sunday, well yeah like duh..
Sec 3 camp was a blast, well even though it wasn't like tt tirin.
We had zip-line, abselling, rock climbing, high rope elements, low rope elements, kayaking, rafting, ummm, the kidnap game and of course CampFire !!
Well i din try zip-line and abselling....Hehe
For the campfire we wanted to do " I ask My Love", and then a cheer tt our teacher thought us, but in the end we din do i ask my love...So Sad, hehe Hakim was to be my partner :P

I ask my love (i ask my love)
To take a walk(to take a walk)
to take a walk..(to take a walk..)
down orchard road(down orchard road)
by past mandrian(by past mandrian)
to centerpoint(to centrepoint)
Where we had lunch(where we had lunch)
At Macdonalds(at macdonalds)
we had fillet(we had fillet)
and an apple pie(and an apple pie)
we shared a cup(we shared a cup)
of lemon lime(of lemon lime)
I held her hand(i held her hand)
look into her eyes(look into her eyes)
and asked her to (and asked her to)
be my valentine(be my valentine)...

Hahas, still gt somemore :P
Very Romantic ah....hahas, juz kidding xD
Loving fwendz and family in my heart, tt's where i'll hold them till the very end,
for a kiss may end our lives and may we sleep in peace..
K TT was totally random (TTM-To The Max) hahas..

Well yeah i'm part of the camp craft competition in Npcc, Sir was like it's a very BIG thing
and only happens once in two years yeah, and he said tt he'd promote us i reank instantly if we were in the top ten in singapore, it's hard yeah..
We're to do Flagstaff, Basar, and pioneering all these in just 12 minutes!!! Man, we've to work dam hard, other sch's they can put up their flagstaffs in juz 2 minutes, while we take 15! (our firt try) We have to work dam and freaking hard to accomplish our goal.... we have to do our very best...

2009-12-15T14:23:00.003+08:00

Well today is juz like any other average day, told him how i really felt, scared though... wat if he does nt feel the same way ?? well juz hv to wait, did prawns then did the dishes, now sitting here, later gotta hv to help mmy wif cleaning and all then later in the evening have to go to church, duty for The Simbang Gabi eucharist. ...Well i dun really noe wat to say right now....

Juz hope i dun end up ~~broken hearted~~...... like this "

2009-12-10T21:01:00.003+08:00

Hey:D i have nt updated for like ages! Hahas, was kinda busy , yes i noe i'm saying the same thing again and again.. Well tt is thee fact ;)
Well my mum had been taking orders for pineapple tarts frm her fwendz. In total we have 1500 to do !! MAN tt is really alot :P
Woke up early today morning measured the flour and butter for mummy for the tarts. I think i screwed up wif the butter, hahahs i muz hv been daydreaming when i was weighing it. WTH!
Yup tt made work alot more difficult for my mum, so i made sure i measured the butter correctly for the next set :D and guess wat? i did! Yeah MaRaLene XD
Hahahs, went to church later in the evening at 4, for Dancing :P
Man i miss the days dancing, soo stress releaving, lol.
Actually it is, to let ur mind be free and juz follow the dude/guy hu is leading you :) I was like shocked when i walked into the room as most or almost all of them were sec 1's, they're like soo enthusiastic i'll say, funny part was tt when father turned on the music the girls(sec 1's)sit in a straightline waiting for the boys to come and ask them for the dance, while the boys (servers/sec 1's) juz stood and stoned, then father stoped the music and asked the guys to go ask the gurls to dance, well eu see when it comes to dancing eu can really blame the boys if you feel bored :P hahas, well days juz gt lighter and rolled the troubles down my shoulder, i let it go even though it lingers, i dun wanna talk bout it to anyone, coz i noe tt i'm ok and tt i will be. It's life.
Life's a climb but the view is great :D

2009-11-26T15:17:00.002+08:00

My lips like sugar XD !! Hahas juz kidding, well i've been really busy lately, so i could'nt update my blog.. Well went to church today morning to do rehersals for the KinG and I thing.. We had to Perform infront of father t to see and check and correct our mistakes... Well yeah it's like "Scene 1 take 10! " . But it was still kinda fun hahas, then after practice wif father, we rehersed at the church carpark and tried to make it look swift.. Julius is like the king and the rest of us are like the so called servents at the begining and the narrators..
Well the real event is like tmr, evening at 7.30 but we've to be there like 2 plus...
And after the presentation we've to stay back in church to help wif the cleaning up, so it'd take kinda long, and we've to so called camp out in church :) good point. the bad point is tt on saturday morning i've my church ministry's cleaning up .... Uff, it's like soo tiring!!
Ok tt is chap 1 of my book, 2nd is NEW MOON!!
I'm gonna watch it wif Faz, Aj, and faie, ..
Can't wait for it :D Taylor is like freaking HOt for a 17 yr old, chuckles :P
Hahas, well i'm nt always jumpy and feeling happy eu noe, this gurl has also a sad and dark side..
1. I've a freaking zit on my forehead..
2.I'm nt spending enough time wif my family...
3.Feel like eatin Magnum !!
4.Wanna noe wats wrong wif my life!!
Yes, this soo called bez fwend or person i shall nt name hu is killing me little by little man, it's like eu noe a vampire sucking out my blood, no!! i''m nt over-reacting...
I wanna forget this person but it's kinda difficult... Well guess it's part and parcel of my life right?..
Btw i really like the colors on the lips :P sooo sweet !! hahas :D

2009-11-03T19:37:00.004+08:00

It's been a few days since i blogged.. I've been seriously bored for the past few dayz...
Well spent most of my time helpin wif dishes , some housework and most of all facebook!!
I seriously gt no idea wat to do. well ya i've holiday assignments to do ! Yes, i noe tt it's the holidayz but hu can help it? It's still in my file.
I've loads of tidin up to do, i've my sch books all over in my room and dining table -.- it's in a terrible mess.
My mum's like " pls keep them away nicely"..
Well xmas is around the corner, around a loooooong corner, and i'm havin a Party !!
I only invited some ppl, sooo pls dun be angry or i dunno mad wif me? for nt inviting eu'll.
I had a wierd dream..
Dun wanna talk bout it, it's kinda umm.... er... dunno
well i din do anthing much today, i did cleaning, did dinner :D Went over to sister's place to return her her bag tt she lent mi for my npcc atc camp, well i'm havin another camp coming up, it's the leadership camp, and yes it's organized by NPCC, coz we're now all coprals !! Which means we're in-charge of the sec 1's and 2's nex yr!!
It ought to be super fun :)
Well i guess tt i'm ~~soo~~ in ~~love wif him~~, nt!
Well lately i've been thinking bout him..
Well life's gettin over ratted..
I dunno wat to do, it's like a confusion. uff.....
Well tt's all for today..

MuacKzz :D

2009-10-30T21:11:00.003+08:00

Today was like the last day of sch..

It was soo sad ppl were crying and hugging!

Well today's like the last day my fwendz and i will be like together as a class.

2E4 will never be forgotten!!

We gt our report books today..

I did well but nt as well as expected though. Well i decided to take combi C as it offers Biology. The rest combinations offered Physics and i'm nt good at it, i'm more of a bio person :D

Yup so most probably i'd be taking bio/chem, POA and ya...

Well i played in the rain today !! If eu noe me well eu'd understand how much tt means to me :P

But somehting missed though... I dunno why i always hv this sudden pang of lonliness and as if my heart's ripped out and there's like a hole in it..

I dun cry out but keep it in.

Maybe tt's why it hurts, if only i could let go of the past and move on..

It's difficult, if only he could see, i dun blame him though... Haiz in all it's all rounded down to complications..

I would if he'd lend me his shoulder to cry on , and a caring heart to hear my troubles and a soothin voice to help me...

Could he mend the hole in my heart?

Could he be the one?? ..........

Uff....

.........

2009-10-27T09:46:00.003+08:00

Gosh, i've like nt blogged for like a very long time...
Well many things had gone right and wrong during tt period of time..
Recently i juz had too much of complications in my life.
Uff..
As i result i've been feeling soo bad and keep writhing poem. :Lol:
I juz keep hoping for tt hug...
Well i did well for my examination, but i could hv done better.
Soo bout my complications..
I thought bout them for a pretty long time and came to a decision..
I juz hope tt i won't regret wat i had decided over time.
Growin up could juz be soo difficult at times, wif family fwendz studies, relationship.
Well they're the most common complications rite??
Yeah, soo i really dunno wat to blog, i juz feel soo BORED!
But STILL dunno wat to blog..
I've many happening but it's juz tt it's too much to write.
like i said before it's complicated...
I'm juz waitin for the angel to come and same me frm this bordem, loneliness and complications.
♥If only eu Knew tt eu belong wif me...♥

2009-09-09T14:02:00.002+08:00

School holidays are here.... Yaya eu'll noe tt, so yup.. I'm trying to relax and study doin homework, chores, fwendz, church, family and life... It's not tt difficult but it's actually kinda easy in a difficult way la..
Haiz, well i went for the Civil defence course yesterday,
We learn't like plenty there coz we were like there 8-5pm, yup yup
We learn't fire safety, CPR, First Aid, Casulty evacuation,emergency procedures and unconventional threats :)
Plenty right??
Gosh! it's amazing to noe tt CPR can revive a near to death person if conducted CPR in the right and fast time as possible..

Well holidays also mean freedom rightt??

But well in din kinda overuse it this time :)

Hahas....

Well i went lunch wif Alex, we talked bout fwendz school, ate apple pie,

umm... went for .... dunno yet.

But will be going for breakfast wif Julius and alex on friday before our camp :)

Yeah!! My camping bags are like half packed, juz need my pencil case, soap, shampoo,

comb, washwash etc..

Wat ?! I'm nt gonna list out everything to eu'll, besides nt many ppl read my blog...Uff..

Well my heart is filled wif emotions and thoughts, and it's true tt i tell ppl wat i think bout them and stuff..The truth.

And sometimes things bout me, feelings, crushs, hurts i dun really tell ppl bout it.

So my heart feels heavy and all carrying all the thoughts and words together wif my emotions.

I juz feel like pouring them out and crying..

But i try hard to hold myself together ..

I'm glad tt i've gt Alex for always being there

and helpin me wif probs, my BIG sis :)

Fazilla, for always solvin my doubts, and comfort me wen i'm down :)

Bruno, for always causing me to wear a smile no matter wat, askin me to never give up and always think positive and for motivating me :)

Family for support :)

Gosh!!! My list is like Super Long...............

Dun wanna name them all, but these are the ppl always wif me :)

Sch

2009-09-05T16:19:00.002+08:00

OMG! the 1 week holiday is like here :) BUt hey it's nt for slacking or hanging out wif my fwendz.
I've like sch on tue's to Thurs. Fri to Sun is my church camp....
Monday is wat i hv to do all my hw's and revision on. i'd do revision on wed to thurs also la.
Well, i'mnt gonna burry myswlf in the books!!!
I'm gonna enjoy wif music and movies together wif family and fwendz!
Soo goona enjoy my church camp on Fri:)
Well gtg..
I wanna write more, but time in my hand is kinda short.. Hehe:)
BTW!! HAPPY BDAE ADRIEL :)

Bdae:)

2009-08-21T15:45:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! Guess wat?!
This princess is gonna like turn 14 in say, 5 more dayz!
Yeah! at last i'd be like a yr older :) hahas..
yup, it's true when ur happy tt ur turnin a yr older wen ur younger,
but when eu grow oldewr ur like, ...." oh man, i'm a yr older"
hahas, eu usually stress at the older part, but hey,
age is part of ur life eu noe ;)
LOL!
Duh?! ok i'm like talkin crap...
hahas, i've no idea wat ta write bout.
Oh, i noe!!
Ok i was like 2 wks ago, my fwend Fazilla, bought this small cake for Faidz, Abelaine and ME! it was soo sweet of her ya?
She said tt she wanted to celebrate her fwendz bdae's together, coz the 3 of our bdae's are like in the month of ya, august:)
It was a chocolate cake wif 3 choco hearts and 3 strawberries:)
NO body had ever done tt for me except for my family of course...
I was really glad tt i've a fwend like her..
Soo... i planned to treat her to New Moon as her bdae's juz around the corner of the movie..
yup.. nothing much to say la.. Duh!!! I'm no pro writer eu noe?
Oh yeah! i joined the St Rita's wardens society in church, it's kinda exciting and also scary at times,... I've to get used to it.. Nt used to walkin in front of many ppl, except for when takin attendence in the sch parade square during morning assembly..hahas, sweet chairperson huh.
Yeah tt's all for today peeps:) Gt NP tmr and yeah....

Flicks....

2009-08-09T13:19:00.013+08:00

Alone...
Loneliness..

Drownin in sadness..

Never ending problems...< Melting sensations...

Darkness engulfs..

Dark secrets..

Sense of belonging..

Fear of losing..

Indifferent..
Pictures say alot, they reflect some parts of ur life tt eu can never explain. Pictures are filled wif emotions,some ppl feel the urge to feel some of the emotions tt they dun often feel. Well sometimes it juz takes time to feel certain emotions, it would come at the rite time yeah?..

Hey!!

2009-08-06T18:32:00.002+08:00

Hahas..I'm like soooo sry for nt updating my blog for like ages ppl!! :)

Hahas.. i din hv time, LOL!

Was busy wif facebook tt's why, studyin, church...ya.

Besides, my blog is still kinda dead.

Well the past few weeks were marvellous, it could never had been better, soo many things happened, sad stuff to fabulous stuff!!!

Well there was like a fire drill last wk and an emergency preparation exercise today! OMG! They made the fire seem sooo real, there was smoke comin out of the physics lab, and there were like 3 police cars, an ambulance, 2 fire trucks...YA, it was all dramatic.

I had the UNSW math on wed, it was ok nt tt hard for a first timer like me..hahas.

I did the Australian math competition today, it was kinda hard but ya i tried my level best in it:)

My sch's celebratin Singapores Bdae tmr!!! OMG, it's gonna be fun i guess, LOL, we've soo much to study man!, common test are like juzzz around the corner, ahhhh!!! Streaming yr eu noe? Hello?! tryin to get into 3e1 here, do eu mind?!! hahasss...

Yeah, tt's my dreams and yeah i'm reachin for it, never givin up.

No dorks gonna pull this gurl down;)

Eu now wat?? soo many peeps bdae's are like this month!

*Abby

*Clarisson

*God ma

*Aaron

*Singapore

*Joel

****ME!!****

Hahas..I'm turnin 14!! How great is tt huh?

well a yr older eu turn the more responsibilities eu have, so ya this gurl has some work ta do... actually.. alot la:)

Well, i've placed the LOVE aside, for now, dun wanna let it bother me and my poor heart.hurts too much ya, unless eu've ur perfect fit.

Hahass

Mal..

2009-07-11T11:20:00.002+08:00

Well.. i'm suppose to be in pulau ubin for my NP adventure training camp.

But...due to the H1N1 thingy our camp is postponed till further notice.

Well, as eu'll noe tt Michael Jackson had passed away, and his death still seems to be a question mark to many, including me. His music are juz awesome, no better word can describe them I'd say, his songs, help the earth, Bad, Don't stop till eu get enough, I'll be there and many more were juz beautiful. He had been a kind and generous singer, father to his children and a alms giver.

He had donated millions to children all around the world and has had his name in the GB of records as the worlds largest Celebrity donator i think.

Ya.. so he's been in many ppls hearts and he will always be there.

His daughter Paris gave a sad and touching speech bout his father on his memorial day.

Pray tt lord will guide his family.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Would it be nt be much easier if love was to be like an apple tree?
Where eu could juz pluck it out of the tree?
Well sadly it's nt.
Many think tt love is juz a fantasy,
but they dunno tt it's juz too real.
Love may hurt,
Love may be sweet,
But in the end both are juz deceived.
There's nothin tt can be done
to the broken heart of thee,
only if it's mend in their hearts wif glee.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

A poem is always wat i love to write,
they may be simple or juz ugly.
But it matters nt for there's alot tt words can say tt our mouths can't.
It's a feeling burning in each others hearts.
Well GTG, (:

School ♥.....

2009-06-28T16:01:00.001+08:00

Haiz.... Sch's to start tomorrow.. Hv ta wake up early in the morning, but hey good thing is i get to see my fwendz and teachers. Wif the H1N1 thingy my trip to malaysia was cancelled... Was looking forward to it though..Nvm.

I still hv my adventure training camp, at pulau ubin, a promotion criteria, hopefully the camp won't get postponded, if nt my promotion day will also be postponded. tt can nt happen! Well anyways, on friday Alexandria, Julius, Joel, Travor(Nicholas bro), Nicholas and i went to watch Transformers revenge of the fallen !!!! The line to get tickets were long!......

We waited and waited and we gt the tickets, but bad news was tt there were no enough places, so we had to seat like 3 ppl on row 4 and 3 ppl on row 3. The movie was juz Awesome! BumbleBee was juz stylin and cute although it was a car.... The new auto bots are juz stylin! Sam's goin to collegue and freshmen are'nt allowed to hv cars so he has to leave BumbleBee at home, but BB juz can't leave without Sam.. I can't be teelin to ya all the whole story can't i? Tell ya wat, go and watch the movie it's juz Awesome. After the movie we went back and ya... I did my backpack packin and ironin the uniform and stuff, eu noe the usual..

Well tt's for now, i dun hv any lines to say yet but, i will never stop writin poems no matter wat happens, for my words mean alot, i express alot through them, they juz mean too much :) GTG.

Eu said........

2009-06-21T16:16:00.002+08:00

hahas... This is gonna sound soo funny..

Rember wat i said in my last post?

" love is in the air" .. Haha's it is but well lets juz say we dun get wat we expect in love..

"Life is like a box of chocolates, eu will never noe wat ur to get" .....

Well, its hard nt to fall in love, once when eu noe tt the guy is perfect.

Well, at this age it's nothing but confusion tt's all..

I made a Big mistake to like someone only to noe tt he's attached.. My heart skipped a beat yesterday...Hahas..

I can still laugh cause i had teared it over, there's nt gonna be a point were things are gonna change all of a sudden, it would take a miracle to change it all..

A big big miracle.. Hahas.. Well i'm tellin myself nt to do the same mistake yall !

Well i spent my Friday evening till today afternoon, at my God ma's place. Sleepover!!

We watched movies, loads and loads of them, we talked bout sch, work and fwendz...

WOAH! De ja vu!! okay eu ppl dunno why i juz said De ja vu, i won't tell yall...

Bruno says tt i'm freaky!!! Well ya everyone is, oh he said tt too.

Well lets juz say tt i'm special in a special way, NO! i dun hv super powers!!

but i'm special.. and some ppl are juz missing it out.

BUT hey! Hu cares? I'm loved by my family and fwenz.. GTG now..

PS: Still hurt, but got over it..

Hey! ♥

2009-06-19T16:03:00.004+08:00

Love's juz in the air, can't eu feel it ??

Hahas.. No! I'm not in LOVE....

Juz wondering bout it..

well Last wk sat and Sun was off the hook!

Sat the Archbishop came to St anthony to celebrate our feast day :)

There was dancin after tt..

OhhLala.. Danced wif Ryan, Gabriell and some other servers..

Jive, Waltz.....

Haiz...

Then on Sun we had the game stalls!

I and my fwendz mended PLINKO.

Awww... And i saw Bruno after like ages(2 months)

missed him man!! Then we talked ya, but we couldn't talk for long as i had to take care of the store.. Aww.. BUt we still talk almost everyday:)

Well, I'm pissed, Ryan had been avoiding me for dunno wat reason.. He's angry wif me?

dunno... Dun wanna noe yet, well maybe i do.

Wanna watch DRAG ME TO HELL, but all my fwendz are busy wif their own plans. Asked Bernice to come said she would check and let me noe. Waititng....

Yeah! Going to my God Ma's house today for a sleepover:) Swee-t......

Well GTG got loads of dishes and Laundry to go.

Cya ... ♥ Muackz!

Smile♥

2009-06-12T16:17:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE !

Hey!! Today's my fwend Jasmine's birthday!

Well she invited me to Wild Wild wet and Escape, but i could'nt make it. .. soo sry for tt Jasmine.

But hey !! Ur 14!!

Happy Birthday to eu ,

Happy birthday to eu,

Happy bithday to eu Jasmine,

Happy birthday to eu !!

Ur a cute and beautiful fwend of mine, so hv a beautiful and awesome birthday Jasmine !! OH man, i painted my nails PURPLE yesterday, and they dun look tt good. butt i din remove it off as i really had a hard time puttin it on. Went for dance yesterday, danced wif Ryan and other servers, they LOVE juz LOVE jive as they have loads of spinning in them .. Hahahas... Cute righttt, but tiring..

They are juz hype ppl!

K's i gtg , have ta get ready for church. BB.

♥tried my bez...

2009-06-10T17:33:00.002+08:00

Went shopping in Orchard yesterday:))

Bought quite alot of things...Soo many, I bought two dresses, yes i noe tt dresses ain't my type of clothing, but hey it's good to try out new cloths and fashion:)) Ya soo ones silver and the other is purple!!! Yes i ♥ the purple one, juz like i ♥ purple and blue, but... I can't wear a blue dress i'd look odd, depends on wat shade the blue is. Dark blue more to black and light blue would look nice. My mum asked me to buy sandles but i said tt i din wanna. I also bought a Elmo t-shirt. It's toppo CUTE!! well my sis and mum bought stuffs too. I can't be blogging bout wat we All bought durin shopping right?! I'd be soo odd. Well St Anthony's feast Day is coming this Saturday. We're havin food and fun fair:) Yeah!!! We're havin game stalls put up by the youth which is us of course! And also other ministry groups putting up food stalls, eu've to try them, they are DEli-cious... Last yr my fwendz and i put up our own Game Stall and seriously in my own opinion it su**ed. So thins yr my gurls and i are putin up PLINKO!!! It went on well last yr, guessin it would also this yr:)) The Food and fun fair is on Sat. After evening eucharist on Sat there is food at the auditorium followed together wif Dance!! I haven't danced for like long time. Sun is ST Anthony's Feast Day Dinner.:) Days of fun and laughter i'll say!

i wrote a poem :

Lonely

I'm standing here in a world full of ppl but.. still i feel alone.and all i see are faces, which arn't true. Spaces all covered wif nothin but blue. My hearts torn apart, and only eu can mend it for me. I'm sinking into this black hole, and i'm swallowed full. My wish is for you to come and safe me frm this loneliness. Only eu've got the strength to do tt and i noe eu will for tt's the fact♥

I can write alot , cause i feel alot too... My hearts fragile but strong, every time it beats it's sound rejoices me tt it's never silent:) and i'm glad i've true fwendz hu love me truely. I'll wait for ya no matter how long it would take, but wen i noe tt i dun stand a chance i'd promise tt i'd walk away.

♥ Be wise ♥

2009-06-05T14:39:00.000+08:00

It's the june holidays....

went to sch the whole wk except for today, wasn't feeling well. Went for S.A.N.A course yesterday, 7.30 to 5.45, reached home at 6.30... Was soo tired but the lecture was worth it and was fun too. Learn't soo many things bout wat would happen if eu take drugs and tt it can ruin ur life and affect ur loved ones too.. Soooo.... at any point of time, even if ur stressed or depressed cause of exams, family, peer-pressure or even love!!! DUN EVER TRY DRUGS! they juz kill eu and cause soo much hurt to ur family. There was a case where a 23 yrs lod Lawyer was arrested for consuming drugs, she was sent into prisson for 3yrs and when she returned frm prison she could not be a lawyer again! Wat a waste of studies and hard work.. Eu may think tt eu dun take drugs and tt ur tt eu won't end up in such a situation. But... eu may never noe. The highest qualified person caught for taking drugs is a diploma holder!!! So... Say NO to Drugs... Do Drugs solve ur probs?!

Tt was juz a msg tt i wanted to convey out to eu'll readin this:) Well today work up in the morning, did mornig chores as usual and ate breakfast, after breakfast i did my math hw... helped mum mark sis el assesment bks and helped her wif cooking....Then ate and now over here..,. Well tt's all for now.. So toodles! :)

Tired

2009-05-29T10:15:00.001+08:00

Woke up today morning at 7, did my morning chores.

din eat breakfast (soo hungry).

Log on to Admiralty's Learning Management System.

Being the teaching and learning carnival we are havin elearning at home for Thursdays which was yesterday and Friday, today.

I did my Hw, chat along wif suu bout the assignment and how to do english and stuff. Julius is in Aus, Melbourne!!!

He says tt it's freaking cold out there and tt it's 2hrs faster then Singapore. Take care bro, for Swine flu is juz nex door:)

Dun wry la bro, eu'll be fine:))

So ya did elearning, after tt posted pics on face book, now blogging. I've nothin much to do durin the holidays, 1st wk is sch, then hw, church , family, fwendz, I'm planning to sleepover at my Ninang's ( god mother is philipino lang) and spend time wif her. I'm going kuKup wif my mums wardens fwendz on the last two days of the holiday, and also Saint Anthony's Feast Day is comin. I'm putting up a game store and ya there is a dinnner and dance in the evening on the same day.

Going wif moi family and fwendz, dancin wif Ryan and the other girls.. Nt only partyin and goin out i've to study hard for my end of yr, yes i noe it's far but i've to prepare for it. My goal is to be in the top 30's at least..:) I noe tt i can do it i've juz to work harder and put in more effort:)

Toddles! ♥

♥ I could hv done better ♥

2009-05-21T15:20:00.000+08:00

OMG! My results were out, and i'm happy bout some but not all...

I din do well for my MT and El!

I noe tt i could hv done better but i dunno why, i din do tt well!

I juz hate myself for not puttin in my 110% in my examinations..

But i'm still glad wif my D&T and Lit..

Well Bruno said tt i've to be born in blood wif lit, and tt's the reason why i did soo wel for lit...

But still i'm not tt sure..

I still tear over it .

My mum was really expecting me to do soo well in my mid-yr but i did, but juz nt tt well i say.

Well i've really really gota work harder. Maybe ask Teacher's help and even My seniors..

I've got to pull uo my socks!

i really thk Lord for being there wif me and helpin me wif my Math and other subjects..

Praise to eu Lord almighty:)

well i noe tt my fwenz expected me to do really well mostly Him i guess...

But i did but not up to eu'll expectations and i feel sad and stupid for it.

How i wish i could do better, and in noe tt i will:)

Trust, Trust in the Lord, lean not on ur own understanding,

in all, all of ur ways acknowledge him, he'll

make ur path straight!♥

♥Bored & Tearin♥

2009-05-17T17:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY B'DY DESHALYNN!!

Exams are over:)

Good thing is i dun need to strees soo much...

Bad thing is tt i've got nothing much to do.

Went to church yesterday for my mum's wardens Easter celebration, she asked me to stay late as she had to clear the area since she so called organised it...

No offence but it was boring......

I was tired as i had to wake up early the next morning as i had religious class.

So i asked her if i could leave early, so i left around 10 alone, in heels!! Ouch, my foot hurt soo badly yesterday.. I would never wear it out unless it's needed.

Went for cat class today, after tt went for Eucharist....Then followed alex go CWP..

Then came back home, mum made spaghetti. mmmm....It was DEE-licious! A while later i felt soo weak, dunno why. i went to my parents room, and layed down on their bed listing to music and i juz Dozzed off....

I guess i was tired, wakin up wif a slight temp, i had to go for the prophet talk which was 4-5 but i was already late for i woke up 3.20 ++....

Well tt's how my day was mostly spent, but i was also spendin my days tearing inside.

I keep thinkin of wat he said..

Dunno why?!! It seems soo stupid to still like him wen he already said tt he wasn't interested in a relationship.

Every guy hu asks me is nice and kind but never better then him. He cares for me, he's kind and gracious, he cares for me soo much juz a fwend...And i'm juz askin for too much. It's hard to forget someone like him when eu've known tt person alot...Now i'm struggling to forget him, i haven't seen him for months and i noe tt the days would juz grow longer and tt it would not be in days time if i were to meet him. I assured him tt i dun have my hopes up high , it's true tt i dun, but... I juz can't stand the fact tt i'm pushing away every chance of seeing him....

All i can do now is to wait patiently....

Mid Year Examinations.....

2009-05-08T13:33:00.000+08:00

Haiz ...MYE started on wed..
I mugged like crazy for my math paper 1,
I've got to mug harded for paper 2 man!!
Ahh!!

Art examination is nex fri and i've not done
my prep boards finsh yet [ stage where i'm panickin]
I'm only at investigation stage...
I've to do it finish.

well now playin pet society on facebook:)
It's fun ☺
tomorrow got taize prayer to attend.
Well tt's all for today i may post after my mid yr☺
Toodles♥

Mid year Examinations....

2009-04-27T16:13:00.000+08:00

OMG!!

The MYE's are like in 9 days time..

Stress..

I'm like soo messed up, wif revisions uncomplete.

Art has like soooo many things to do.

I'm soo not takin art nex yr man.

Well i hv the confidence tt i can do it for my MYE.

I've to study damn hard...

I will:)

I noe tt i can too..

Soo all the bez to my fwendz.

Bye.........

Words poured out....

2009-04-19T16:51:00.000+08:00

As being myself i just love writing poems...
the words just come out fluently..
and eu've got no idea how i love writin them even though they're
not juz as good..
My thoughts and all..

I name it: Beautiful Smile

Ur smile is beautiful,
it makes my day full.
Ur words all they sooth,
loving the times i'm spending wif eu,
though i may cry,
eu try to make me smile,
and tt thought tt eu gave,
shows ur care and love tt eu name.
Ur peace shall stay, i promise eu,
for good afternoon, my prayer is full,
and i thank for having someone like eu....

I name it: Bitter

Ur patience i admire
how i wished i could be more like eu,
in eu i discovered,
someone more then i knew.
I learn't alot from eu,
and tt made my life better.
When i think life's bitter,
eu make it all much easier.
I thank Lord for showing
me tt ur always there when needed
if i were to fall,
i know tt eu'll carry me.
Do eu noe how gratefull i'm feeling
to have a fwend like eu.

I name it: Stupid

How will i ever see ur face now,
for eu left me out here alone.
I thought eu were the one, and tt eu loved me,
but now it's too late, cause i'm already gone.
Still eu stood sayin tt eu loved me, but i noe
tt eu don't.
Ur words always pierce me when eu talk bout her.
Can't eu stop talking boout her?!
Won't eu know tt i'm ur true love?!
All those days tt we spent around the fire,
holding hands in love desire.
Now i'm leaving in pain, and never comin back.
Ur words may change, but my heart won't.
For i noe our love is banished,
Oh! how stupiod i feel to fall for eu again!
Don't let me say it again, for eu noe it's true.
Tt true love's hard to find,.
Just leave me and i'll be fine,
better then being held in ur arms..

I name it: Ur fake love story

Eu smiled,
Eu sayed eu loved me,
all ur babies, loves and sweethearts,
tt eu said.
Made me believe ur words,
eu made me love eu too.
Eu showed tt eu cared,
and i thought tt eu were true,
but now eu say ur done wif me,
Wat will i do now, after trusting,
eu for long?
Ur words now pierce me
when eu say we can still be fwendz,
but... eu never knew tt eu had placed a end.
Dun eu dare say sorry,
for i'm done wif ur fake love story..

There's nothing tt can stop me from following my heart
UN♥ED

ShOw CaSe....

2009-04-05T17:45:00.000+08:00

Well I've totally got over him, tt was soo yesterday:)
It's too cliche, I won't say tt I'll fall for him again!!

Yesterday was my dance showcase in church...
Mmmmm..Wat did i do??

Woke up in the morning at 8 for tuition at 1030.
After tuition took shower packed bag wif, dress, shoes
make-up, towel, toiletries etc☺.
Reached church at 120, for dry run of our performance,
there were 4 bands and 3 diff dances, Jive, Tango & Salsa.
We did the dry run til 4 plus, then later Jean Alicia and i went
over to Alicia's place to dress up for our showcase.

We got ready and reached church at 6.
We went to the auditorium, and there were the guys there already.
Bruno was helping to bring in the food.
It was 7 , all are ready , Bruno is already dressed.
730 all started.
Silas Gen Bruno and i were performing right after Jive..
It was OUR turn, Ahh!! Panic, soo many ppl..
Bruno told me to relax and juz keep wif thew flow,
he told me to imagine tt the audience were all in their undies. {LOL}
He was nice to calm me down,...
After performance the floor was open for all to dance.
Danced Jive & WALTZ !!!
We totally love Waltz:)
At the end left church at 10 plus.
Hugged, said bye and left.
Reached home before 11.
Went to bed but could not sleep at all.
Listened to music "Here without you".
Smsed Bruno, tellin him i could not sleep, he told me to pray,
and he was soo tired tt he dozed of in his sofa:)
He muz hv been sooo tired..
missing eu and wishing eu were here only to
noe tt it's impossible!!
I slept ard 12plus.
Well tt was for yesterday.

Woke up today morning 7 to go for religious class...
Was SOO tired!!!
Sleepy!!
after class Alex and i went to Mac's for Breakfast..
Well ya came hm and did all my HW.
Din understand math tt well, but managed to do,
smsed Bruno, Jean etc...
now seatin here ,...Well there is sch tomorrow
and also Reconciliation service in church.

Wats the point of cryin??♥

2009-03-29T17:51:00.000+08:00

I'm still broke tt he left me...
Why should he say tt he loved me at the first place??
Why should he play hard juz to win my " I LOVE YOU"?
Why should he leave me like this??
Soo many questions like this still unanswered..
Wat will i ever do?
Every word tt i hear tt remind me of him hurts..
Bcoz of him i can't listen to the music tt i loved.
Becoz of him i start to fear love, fear tt it will hurt!!
I can't be fearless, for i really loved him,
It's long since he left but still...
My heart aches..
Every time i see him walk past me, I'm still
hoping tt he would come back but juz to see all
me thoughts fade away it juz hurts...
Won't he ever know tt i truely loved him...

To who am i to turn, to who am i to cry to?
I cry wif no space to dry..
Who will lend me a shoulder & care to listen??
Even i was to tell they would juz say forget bout him..
Whom shall i rely on to tell my hurts??

Love juz hurts and i dun wanna try it again soon...
I'll wait till i find my remedy...
Tears juz flood my eyes and make me blind..
But which dear person would help me climb, frm this hole i'm in??

Livin to love? or Lovin to live?

2009-03-22T13:51:00.000+08:00

....Saturday.
Everything was soo abnormal.
My relationship ended , wif a stab in my heart.

Wait a minute!! Why am i going soooo dramatic??
Well basically, me and moi boy brokeup..
Yes, it sucks...
I feel sooo STUPID trusting his words..
and soo broke, ...
All his LOve, sweet heart, got no where but
to the end of the wrong winding road..
Does it not suck to see the one whom
eu love leave eu and juz walk away?

Stop!!! Wat are eu saying??
Question existing, am i livin to love or lovin to live??
BIG question right?
I've learnt my mistake and i won't do
it again , i may tear a thousand times becoz
of him, but i'll smile a million times to noe tt i've
learnt my mistake..

For i'll say "Fwendz to Cherish & Love to Banish"
Such a easy word to say " I LOVE EU"
but a difficult thing to promise wif.
His words still echo though..But i hold on a
tight grip & tell myself not to let go.

But my hands are tired and i'm slipping...
I've lost hope in relationships..Dun bother bout them now.
Juz fwendz will do, Brothers are cool,
LOve juz drulez.....

I would now never confuse frineds with tt love.
Becoz friends aren't meant to be lovers. If they were they'd
be frovers. Lo-ends. Don't ya think?

I've made a mistake and i won't make it again....
My life WON'T suck without eu !!!

{ Quiz }

2009-03-19T13:41:00.000+08:00

Tag by Bernice:
1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
*Cheeks
2. How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
*Tired like crazy
3. Who was the last person you took photo with?**
*Me :D
4.Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
*Not to sure bout tt;)
5.Would you ever donate blood?
*Maybe a few yr's down the road.
6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the oppsite sex?
*Like ya!!
7.Do want someone dead?
*Nope
8.What does your last text message say?
*Confidential
9.What are you thinking of right now?
*Him..,Dance, Hw, Projects!! STRESS!!
10.Do you wish someone was with you right now?.
*Yes.
11.What time did you go to sleep last night?
*2.00am
12.Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
*Dun remember
13.Is someone one your mind right now?
*Yes
14.Who was the last person to text you?
*Rahim :D
10 PEOPLE TO TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ:
1.Germaine
2.Aaron
3.Marilyn
4.Julius
5. Syafaie
6. Jasmine
7.Fazilla
8. Debbie
9. Veronica
10. Dorothy

15. Who is 2 having relationship with ?
*Dunno
16. Is 3 a male or a female?
*Female
17. If 7 & 10 get together will that be a good thing?
*Ewww!! They are both gurls
18. What is number 1 stuyding about?
*Sec 2 la!
19. Is Number 4 single?
*Not so sure
20. Say something about Number 5?
*Nice and carin fwend.
21. What do you think about Number 3 & 6 being together?
*Both are gurls
.22. Describe Number 9.
*Fashion Diva.
23. What will you do if Number 6 & 7 fight?
*Good fwendz dun fight!!
24. Do you like Number 8?
* Love all my fwendz:D

Red Roses

2009-03-12T16:01:00.000+08:00

Well today sch was quite not tt ordinary...
Erm, except for teachers scolding students, class mates teasing
each other and boys playing soccer...Everything else was
extra-ordinary i'll say;)

Well actually not everything was extraordinary..
I won't tell wat went well in sch today for me..
It's a secret, Shhh....
Hey those hu noe wats big, dun say a word..
Well had guitar lesson today,
during music..
Learnt simple beats like E.A.D.G.B.E
which also means for 6.5.4.3.2.1

Guitars are easy to learn it's juz tt eu need
to remember the fingering and chords:)
I eagerly wait for every music lesson on thursdays..
Always leaving satisfied for learning something..
My music practical test is on the 2nd term if i'm not wrong..
Need to revise:)

I've soo many things on during the one week holiday..
I've got IPW math and science to do.
Revision for mid yr exams.
Practise for Dance showcase..SOO tireing!!
Well i've to go to church in the evening for dance,,
GTG, tt's all for today:)

typin

2009-03-08T17:56:00.000+08:00

Sry peeps for not posting like for centuries..
Yesterday was beautiful:)

Butt.....Today was wonderfull..
Went to church , religious class. went for mass,
went to library, went for lunch.
Now at home doin moi geog IPW!!

So tiring...Muz print soooo much,
muz type soooo much..
Well gtg:)

♥ Tears ♥

2009-02-28T14:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i had NP training..
My sec 2 squad consists of 84 cadets and only 29 turned up!!!
Ya , tt's horrible..
So we did marching as usual, i din take my lunch...
was damn weak i'll tell ya, after 3 hour plus of drills,
We did pumping , { dun remember how many} did crutches,
say around 66 or 77 jumping jacks!!
Ran 1 round around school..
Tiring!!!

Today went to church in the morning did the en leaven bread for
youth Eucharist in the evening.
It was fun molding the flour:)
After tt i and Bernice went to cause way to find a present for our
friends birthday which is coming soon.
We went to more then words, stuff were too expensive so we
thought of buying it later..
Went back home , now here:)

Will be meeting Bernice again later around 4.30 at CWP.
We're gonna make something for Bruno. {Shhhh!!!}
It was my idea of making something for our caring and lovin Bro:)
Well later having Dinner wif , Jean, Alex, Bernice, Joel, Julius, Novin and Nicholas...
After dinner going to church for youth Eucharist!!
End of the day!!

My tears ill down wen i think bout wat euu have done to me..
Saying all those nice things n then leavin my heart open
like tt!! I hope eu won't do tt again...
But euu did.. eu said tt eu loved me, i trusted euu..
Now were here in the rain wif eu and i nothing to say.
Boy dun leave me like this... ILY I'll say!!

♥ Inside ♥

2009-02-17T18:20:00.000+08:00

Art is a beautiful part of my life :)

I ♥ doing art as other things, although

my art is not perfecto perfect, i try my very

best do much more better in the nex round:)

This is one of my art work.

It's en tittled as tonal values:)

The top pic is a squid and the below one

is some kinda fish:)

Today was a nice day..

School was as normal, teaching studying & etc.

When got back home i checked my hp to check

for msg's. Received one frm Bruno and Fiq.

Bruno was askin bout helping out to do the enleaven bread for the youth Eucharist in the evenin amd come in the mornin to help wif it. I said tt i would hand in a helpin hand, Fiq explained why he was

like ignoring me...

Well ppl got their reasons...

And i juz said tt i forgave him and told him tt i understand,,.

wat am i to do??

Well life is normal..

Humps.... A normal teenage life could be full wif

hurdles and hurts..

Every where i turn his face seems to cling on to my mind,

no matter how hard i try to let go and forget him it clings on like

a leach sucking out my life...

His velvet voice keeps echoing in my head, i feel tt he's still there

here near wif me ... Why did u walk out of my life and now

decide to come back again??

Euu said tt eu regretted wat u had done to me..

Wat am i to say, my dear boy?...

My love for euu is true and i can't and won't forget euu.

Inside

Bottled up inside

are the words that i never said

the feelings that i hide

the lines you never read

You can see it in my eyes

read it on my face

trapped inside are lies

of the past i can't replace

With memories that linger

won't seem to go away

why can't i be happier?

today's a brand new day

Yesterdays are over

eventhough the hurts not

nothing lasts forever

i must cherish what i've got.

Don't take my love for granted,

for soon it will be gone

all you ever wanted

of the love you thought you had won.

The hurt i'm feeling now

won't dissapear overnight

but someway, somehow

everything will turn out all right.

♥Maralene

♥ Valentines Day ♥

2009-02-15T16:08:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was valentines day..
Well lets talk bout Friday's Np training ..
Tiring i'll tell euu!!
Arg!!
The whole training we did drills and marched wif our full
uniforms in the parade square..
I was exhausted.. Well since valentines day was on
Saturday we were wishing each other on Friday:)
Faidz was nice to say "Maralene ur lookin pretty today, Happy Valentines Day"
I wished him back :)
I gave lollipops to my loved ones. Friends la♥
I gave say Fazilla, Toffa, Kelvin, Rahim, Syafaie and
gave Alicia , Deshalynn, made a small gift for
Alexandria, Jean and Julius :)
Well soo many ppl wished me Happy Valentines day but....
the one tt is suppose to wish me did not!!
He ignored my smses for the whole day.
Felt sad and hurt.....
Today woke up late .
Quickly got ready to go cathecism..
Bad day for me today i'll tell.
I choose the wrong blouse, forgot my ipod, couldn't find
my black socks and ya i was late...
When reached class my fwendz & i hugged and wished each
other happy valentines day:)
After class Alex, Julius and i went to causeway for Breakfast
like last wk.. After breakfast Julius went home while Alex and i
went to the library to have a study session...
Well tt was for today:)
I would like to quote this from the American Bible:
A kind mouth multiplies friends,
and gracious lips prompt friendly greetings.
Let your acquaintances be many , but one in a thousand your
confidant.When you gain a friend , first test him, and be not too ready to trust him.
For one sort of friend is a friend when it suits him, but he will not be with you in time of distress.
SIRACH 6: 5-8

♥ Empty thoughts ♥

2009-02-08T15:24:00.000+08:00

So today might be an ordinary day for euu...
But it was extraordinary for me..
Woke up 7 in the morning for Religious class,
choose my outfit to wear and went to bath.
After getting ready i was wearing my
Shoes getting ready to meet Alex
at bus stop and then go meet
Julius and then go cat..
But....She smsed me saying that she over slept and
asked me to take my time to leave but
i had already left my house.
So i went to her bus stop to wait for her,
Met her took bus and went to Cause Way and met
Julius outside Burger King.
Then the three of us took 912 to go to Church,
Saw Frederick, Adrial, Rose, Sacha and Maria in the bus...:)
Class was fun..
We did the chicken dance. xD
It was soo funny!!!
Mostly Joel funny man!!
Ya, so after cat Julius, Alex and i went
to Cause way for Breakfast at causeway:) delicious
after breakfast we went to Xcraft to buy
my hand phone neck strap:)(:
After that wat??
Go home la!!!
Came home unpacked my bag, sat down to study,
but couldn't, something was bothering me dunno wat ,
Can't find out what it is...Sad though...
NVM tt..
I'll be fine , scared!!
This year is streaming, planning to get in to 3E1,
It's really hard, my ambition needs A math and pure science.
And my math is like perfectly "good"... I've gotta
pull up my socks in order to do well and
go to 3E1!!
Gotta work hard..
Well tt's all for today☺

♥Euu or Mee?!♥

2009-02-03T20:03:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl, sry for not updating for like centuries...
My Internet was blocked by fire wall,
so ya , i had no excess to the computer for
a long time..
And ya Alicia, Julius, Alex i really miss u
guys!!
But.....Cat class is on this Sunday!
GROUP HUG!!
It's a muzzz!
K, so alot have been going on for the past few weeks.
Went to Singapore River, Kranji War Memorial, Old fire station
and Fort Canning park on Sunday wif 7 of my friends
for my np total defence silver badge..
Went wif Syafaie,Afiq,Rahim,Zambri,Hafiz etc..
Sry forgot their names :)
We were meeting at causeway point boots & shoes.
Syafaie was LATE!!
Guess hu i saw when we were waiting for
Syafaie?! I saw Bruno!!
Went over to him and talked, blaa blaa
He's studying for a pilot!
Tt is like sooo damn cool!
Ya it was really fun..{the trip}
We went in rounds at fort canning, took
turns to lead the way..
Ya, i was the only girl!!
So ya, the guys were really nice and took "care"
of me☺
I was picked by Rahim!!
But not angry wif him cause i understand he's immature
{no offence Rahim , juz kidding}
He's a nice guy la☺
We went for lunch at Central {burger king}.
The old fire station was beautiful..
The admission was free, we saw the aspects of civil defence..
The fire truck was "hot" if u really knew wat i mean ;)
After all the adventures, we decided to head to
the National Library at bugis..
Found more evidences for the total defence..
So ya now i've got the infoprmation and pictures,
i just need to put them together☺
Well tt's all for Sunday..♥♥
The rest of the school days were normal as usual...
Signing off now♥

♥Empty thoughts♥

2009-01-13T16:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY B'DY ALEXANDRIA RENE DASS ! SIS♥
Today was ok, school was as normal...
But like always my heart was not.
I juz dunno wat's holding me apart from reality ..
Maybe it's the scar tt he left behind,
to whom will i tell my problems to??
Hu has the patience to listent and give me a shoulder
to cry on??
But i'm determined not to make the same mistake
as before, and not to cause pain to myslf wif the
word LOVE....
Well it's partly my falt for beliveing his words..
He was soo sweet, now.....I'm empty.
I'm trying hard to head on wif my life.
It's not easy but i'm still trying hard as i can.
and i noe tt i can make it witout him...
I've got more then his love,
I've got my family , fwendz and moi favourite facill's!!
They're all tt i need to cheer me up.
Well did my geography homework already,and boared now..
Hp where are you??
I seriously need a new one to replace my broken one.
Well got to go, still havn polish my NP boots..
Yay!!...got np training tomorrow..

♥♥♥ Tt thought kills ♥♥♥

2009-01-02T14:10:00.000+08:00

Why am i confusing my feelings??

Why am i thinking of him in this way??

Julius says tt I'm falling for Clarrison!!

Is tt suppose to be true??

Am i falling for him without noeing myself??

My mind is filled wif his thoughts...

His words, his smile, ....

I can't fall for him!!!

He's my "bro" and he really cares for me alot..

I can't ruin my fwendship wif him...

Ohh!!!

Wat am i to do???

Confront my feelings, or to forget it all & think tt it was juz a bad dream??

Wat will he think of me??

Will he hate me??

Will he leave me??

I'm soo sorry Clarisson, I've got no idea,tt i

was falling for u till Julius told me...

I noe hu i am, & i noe tt ur juz a "bro" in my heart..

I'll miss you soo much Clarisson,....ur still filled in my mind...

I can't help it, my mind is gone,deep in side my tears i'll down...

But thx soo much clarisson for always giving me a shoulder

to cry on and an arm to hold when i fall....

I'll never forget you!!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Hey today was the first day of school,

it was soo cute to see the new sec 1's....
mmmm....
So ya i was in school,
saw my old fwendz,
said hi, talked bout hw and holidays.
We assembled at the parade square.
Took our pledge and sang the national anthem....
Blah,blah......
Then we got to our class room,
Our form teacher is Miss Sharifah:)
She's such a nice teacher.
An innovative teacher too...
She really understands our needs...
She really does, she noes tt we ppl love Graffiti,so......
She gave an idea to cover/wrap the table top wif
Black/white paper and do our artistic work there..
Ya, so ya first day was all bout admin stuff and all....

☺ QUIZ ☺

2009-01-01T13:03:00.000+08:00

Insert the names of each alphabet (:
A - Aaron
B - Bruno
C - Clarisson
D - Deshallyn
E - Eric
F - (-)
G - Germaine
H - Hafiz
I - Issabell
J - Joel
K - Kelvin
L - Loraine
M - Marilyn
N - Novin
O - (-)
P - Pricilla
Q - (-)
R - Rahim
S - Sacha
T - Tifanny
U - (-)
V - Veronica
W -(-)
X - Xue Qi
Y - (-)
Z - Zhen Zhan

R & S can be in a boy-girl relationship?
♥ Nope, they dunno each other.

How is L related to you?
♥Friend

Does Y noe Z ?
♥erm...i guess not

If C betrays you would you kill him/her?
♥I noe tt he won't :)

If k steals ur boyfwend wat would you do?
♥He's a boy!!

Wat if B tells you tt he/she has a crush on you?
♥Tt will never happen.

Will you & M get into a fight?
♥Unlikely.

If G calls you a bitch, wat would you do?
♥I dun give a damn!

Wats ur relationship wif E ?
♥Fwend

Hu is I bestfwend?
♥Not sure..

Wat does Z like?
♥Dunno.

Wat colour does Y like?
♥(-)

Where does G live?
♥In Singapore!!

Did you and C have a fight before?
♥Nope.

Hu is H bez fwend?
♥Fazilla??

Wat can you say bout V?
♥Little miss Perfect.

Is S ur bez fwend?
♥Hope we will be:)

Pass this quiz on to 5 ppl:
Marilyn, Syafaie, Dolly, XueQi, Bernice.

{♥} Hello 2009!! {♥}

2009-01-01T12:41:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!
2008 is gone and beautiful 2009 is here..
Lets celebrate this new yr..
Well i already celebrated it yeaterday wif many of my
favourite fwendz, Alexandria, Bernice,
Deshallyn, Alicia, Jean,
Joel, Julius, Novin, Bruno,
Clarisson, Marilyn etc..
Yesterday we danced all the way to 12am, we counted
down to 2009!!
We danced and screamed out our happiness..

Thx to ppl who complimented me in my dress!!

I was dancing the first 4-5 songs wif joel, then he went off
wif Germaine..
Well Julius was nice enough to ask me for dance, it was soo nice
of him:)
Later on Bruno told me tt he nedded me to have a dance wif him..
Well ya soo i and he danced the Waltz and Salsa,
he complimented me tt i can dance very well,
Bruno danced better then me, he's such a nice person..
Later on Clarisson asked me for dance and ya....
We danced and bla.....
Soo many things happened,...
Later Bernice and Deshallyn left at bout 12.55+,
Alex left bout 2.00+, alicia left bout 1.45+,
Ya, so Jean, Novin, Joel, Julius and i were the only 1 from
our clique left..
I stayed till bout 4.30+ then i left as my mum
wanted me back home as it was getting late.
Dunno wat time Jean and the other guys
left , if i'm not wrong they left bout 7.00+ in the morning.
It was the bez new yr countdown!!

GOODBYE 2008 & HELLO 2009 !!!

{♥}New Year!{♥}

2008-12-31T15:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL !!!

Hey ppl ....
Today's like the eve of new yr..
I'm like soo excited.
St Anthony is like havin a countdown,
and moi clique and i are like gathering,
and like chatting..
We girls will be in gowns and the guys will be in suits!!
Cool right??
We will be waltzing, salsaing and jiving..
This is like gonna be like soo cool..
We are like planning to stay as long as like say 5am
in the morning..
I'm wearing a black dress, actually all of us are..
Yesterday we were having our last dancing
practise before the actuall day....
AND!!
There were only like 3 pairs of us..
Me, Joel, Germaine, Novin, Jean, Julius and Deshallyn..
We were like soo retarded..
we enjoy dancing to Waltz and Jive the most..
We dun like Salsa tt much..
It's like....Say , boring, but nice to dance..
Dancing is like soo nice...
K, I really dunno wat to write bout..
Humps...Maybe i'll do Julius quiz...
Wait here :)
And Ppl wishing you a ..
HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

♣ CHRISTMAS ♣

2008-12-25T18:11:00.000+08:00

♥MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!♥

Hey!! It's Christmas..
The day our savior Jesus Christ came into earth..
Christmas is not all bout presents you noe??
It's bout love and sharing.
Love is to love our family fwendz, neighbours and Christ our lord.
We are to see christ through our parents , fwendz etc..
Sharing is to share wat you have in and wif you.
Sharing ur Knowledge, things, love ..
Christmas is not the celebration of Jesus born
as a baby, but Jesus being born in our hearts again, as a man..
Christmas also bring ppl together as a family,
tt's why we have gatherings..And i went for 1 todady :)
I went to my Aunt's place for lunch.
Before tt i went for morning Christmas eucharistic celebration.
I wore a purple dress, my mum wore a purple sari, my dad
wore a purple shirt wif a purple tie, my two sis wore pink dresses.
After mass we took taxi to Sembawang to moi aunties place.
We had lunch, chat and a few minutes later a few of my other realetives
came .. They took a few pictures, i din..I'm not a picture type
of person..
Bla Bla Bla...............................
Then we left home..
Now tired la!!!
So ya i've gotta go now..
Last but not least ,......

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL !!!

{♥} Battery off {♥}

2008-12-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

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Today i did alot of work...
Seriously!!!
i wiped the hall fan and dining area fan.
I vacumed and moped the hall and dining area.
Wrapped presents..
Vacumed my room.
Rearranged furniture....
mmmmm....
Did the dishes , made lunch for sis..
Well tt's all i think..
Alexandria invited me for a study session
wif Jean , Novin and Julius..
I wanted to go but...
I had a lot of work to do at home,
so i couldn't ...
Well Christmas is juz around the corner,
Juz 1 more day!!!
Humps.....
There's still soo much to do..
Gtg...:)

{♥} Why?! {♥}

2008-12-25T18:09:00.000+08:00

Why???!!!

Wait a sec! Let me write bout yesterdays Confession in church
before i go all gloomy and emo....

Yesterday.....
there was a reconciliation service in Church at 8pm.
I was in church like say 7, reason being, my parents are
warden's so they need to be there early for briefing
and stuff..
Ya so i hanged around the crying baby room for a while,
soon got board so though to walk around, so i went to the
coffee corner, there i saw Francesca, Marilyn and Satamp..
Talked to them for a while then passed them the
invitation for moi xmas gathering...
Tt's when Clarisson walked in, i din say HI , i din even act like
i CARED!!! How could i ?! WAIT A SEC !!!
I writing bout recon service not bout clarisson....Will come to tt
later..
mmmm......
Then i went to auditorium to assemble and reflect before going
for confession..
I was reflecting when i got a glimpse of Jean.
She came and sat beside me, we talked..
Then we decided to go for confession, but....
Too many ppl so we went to seat again, at the back this time.
We talked , till it was our turn.
Priscilla and Jeremiah were behind us in the
Q, we were chatting and Jean was laughing away
for a odd reason, seeing her laugh made us laugh too..
The nex thing i noe we are laughing for no reason..
K, we were done wif laughing.
we were directed by the wardens to the priest tt we
were suppose to go and confess.
I was thinking hard to confess all my sins...
Hope i did....
after confession i went to do my penance..
I prayed , askin forgiveness from Lord for my sins
and for making a mistake in my past relationship..
Well tt was all for confession...

NOW ....time for the "HOW?!" question..

I was giving invitations for Marilyn, Francesca and satamp right..
Clarisson("brother") walked in right??
I ignored him right??
Tt was totally abnormal and stupid of me right???
NOW comes the WOW.
i can't believe i ignored my "brother"
Why do i ever get the wrong feelings for my "brother"?!
Naturally seeing him cause my tears to run which is
hard to control.
Clarisson has a nice smile, caring heart..
Humps......
I've got to correct my mistakes and get back to reality..
Illusions are juz for emo days but not for everyday..
I've made mistakes bout me bout my friends bout Clarisson...
I've got to change...
NOW why i hate RELATIONSHIPS!!!!
Relationships dun mean a thing...
LOVE kills and soothes...
But it killed me ....
He stalked a knife through my heart now it's bleeding..
Will it ever stop???
Will my tears end??
Will my scar heal???
Will my broken heart ever get fixed????
Soo many questions still unanswered...
Now i juz pray for my answers...
I'm sorry.....