♥Is it Me ?♥,
Friday, April 30, 2010 @ 1:04 PM
Well my blog had been really really really dead for a very long time and i'm really lazy to update it..Therefore to make up for it, i'm write a journal well a manual one, like with pen and book stuff..
It's not for anyone to read it's only for me but i may, may let the one tt is close to me to read it.. The one whom i can trust with everything, the one whom i noe would nt leav me no matter wat..Sadly i dun have anyone tt trusted next to me.. Well it's true tt i've got Alexandria, Faz and of course Rahim.. But wat i write in it is deep and some are juz too sensitive and kinda personal. So i dun really noe hu to open up to... I don't wanna do the same mistake again! I don't wanna fall again! I dun't want to lose all tt i trusted , i dun want to cry again. i dun wanna be hurt.. i can't take the same hurt anymore.. i'm happy wif wat i'e got, my friends, my family, my life, my bez buds, Alez, Faz and Rahim. Ppl can walk out coz of ridiculos reasons but i noe tt they won't i'd love them and my family with all my life, i got back Bruno. In a different state.. We'e may think tt we are better well maybe i may think tt we are better, but i noe tt we are not.. I dun the feel the difference in my life juz as before when he was in it before he left.. He was my friend whom i thought would never walk out of me, he promised tt he would never walk out of me and tt he would never break our friendship. But all fell apart. He walked out of our friendship he took his promises along, he took my happiness along.. I was lost for soo long,i cried, i was hurt badly. I talked to Rahim and said tt He was nt a good friend.. I'm really glad to have rahim. We may fight for small things but we are always better in thwe end! XOXO! I always think tt i'm alone in this world and tt i dun really have anyone with me but i'm always forgetting to turn around, to turn around and see tt they have always been there.. Ppl may think tt i'm being all closed up and personal bout stuffs, but i'm doing tt coz i feel much more safe and better tt way. Coz i've trusted someone before and i'e opened up before but they were all lost and turned into nothing but plain words.. I had been left bleeding half way, i was juz left there to bleed and be cured by myself. I would never forget tt.. But if there is someone out there who can make me belief in the word called trust, then maybe i maybe fully cured.. Till then i'll still be bleeding out.
Labels: ♥ is tt even the truth anymore??
Happy Valentines Day ! ♥,
Sunday, February 14, 2010 @ 9:19 PM
Pictures Taken at Sufi's Bdae on friday :) Hahas actually there are more, only uploaded 2 of them. lols.. It was fun man, we danced played wif flour, well i din play wif flour i was wearin black the guys played wif flour, while WE gurls danced. hahas, the cake was Delicious!! Well after all that walked back home coz hm was only walking distance away, on the way hm say Jayjayboy on the way home frm sufi's also.. So ya he joined me and we walked hm. Happy belated Bdae Sufi!!
Oh Baby !! Today's Valentines Day!! But sadly i din have a valentine, lol..No body asked me ah, today was kinda bumpy, quarreled wif parents coz of an outing matter.
Well decided to go picinc at sembawang wif jayjayboy, rahim, hakim, Tzemin and Fatimah..
But daddy was like tt place is soo unclean wif spirits and stuff. So i gt angry tt my idea gt turned down.. so i thought bout it and cooled down and decided of lunch and movie instead..
Asked mum bout it and she was like "ur soo cunnning" and i was like WTH! I'm cunnin? eu have to be kidding me man! Well yeah... Umm soo i went for eucharist and stuff, after tt i asked daddy again bout the movie, and for a second i had a feeling tt he thought tt i was going on a date wif my boyfriend or something. lol! hahas well i dun have a boyfriend anyway. haiz, big deal! soo yeah tt's how today ended, texted and listened to music and stuff.. OhOH! Forgot, my dad allowed me to go!! yes, watching Percy Jackson and the lightning Thief ! Man but i'm broke man... i've to get cash, Hey Piggy bank! GTG ♥
Labels: ♥♥Happy Valentines Day ♥♥
Boy ur Dangerous!,
Friday, February 5, 2010 @ 9:59 PM
Love....... 4 letters but a Huge responsibility.
Lols nope i'm nt in love and i dun have a boyfriend, juz being random. But the picture relates alot. Today was a tiring day. Had sch as normal, had POA test, Geography Test, and as usual like any other friday, campcraft competition practice, the competition is only 3 weeks away! and we're nt even fast enough. Soo much of pressure, my school's a Gold unit for the past 3 yr's and every cadet plays a part in it's excelence. i dun wanna let my team and Angela Mam down.
It's nt tt i'm in an important role or something.. It's juz tt i wanna do my part. Reached home today 7, ate oreo, showered, ate dinner texted Khairul and now i'm here.. I still have a pile of homework to be done, sec 3 life is very tiring and tough, and it's painful at times to keep up. I still have T-accounting to do for 4 Sections of POA questions, math ex 2.3-2.5, english comprehension and dunno somemore, it's juz soo difficult to keep up when ur soo filled. I'm soo tired of going to sch, sst home , homework and sleep and tt continuous motion in life. It' s soo meaningless and boring. I dun really get the time to even sit and watch the tv wif a free mind. My mind's always "oh shot eu forgot tt hw" and stuff.. It's constant working make me worn out.
well i'm tryin my best to hold myself together and to get things done quick and on time. Dam common test is like juz around the corner.. I juz wanna cry, for the shit load of work for nt havin a valentine yet.. lolz well life is juz much more complicated wen eu grow up right? .. Well i'm pulling myself up to cope with all this homework and valentines day shit .
My day would get better, i juz wanna have a day when i'm out wif my gurls and guys and juz chillin and nt worryin tt much bout anything.. doubt tt would happen. Hear my prayers oh Lord! ... UN♥ED
LOL,
Sunday, January 24, 2010 @ 12:38 PM
Man................
I've nt blogged for like ages man!!
Well wen i was away (frm e com), i went for sec 3 camp in sch, campcraft competition practices
and of course tonns of homework!
Well today is a sunday, well yeah like duh..
Sec 3 camp was a blast, well even though it wasn't like tt tirin.
We had zip-line, abselling, rock climbing, high rope elements, low rope elements, kayaking, rafting, ummm, the kidnap game and of course CampFire !!
Well i din try zip-line and abselling....Hehe
For the campfire we wanted to do " I ask My Love", and then a cheer tt our teacher thought us, but in the end we din do i ask my love...So Sad, hehe Hakim was to be my partner :P
I ask my love (i ask my love)
To take a walk(to take a walk)
to take a walk..(to take a walk..)
down orchard road(down orchard road)
by past mandrian(by past mandrian)
to centerpoint(to centrepoint)
Where we had lunch(where we had lunch)
At Macdonalds(at macdonalds)
we had fillet(we had fillet)
and an apple pie(and an apple pie)
we shared a cup(we shared a cup)
of lemon lime(of lemon lime)
I held her hand(i held her hand)
look into her eyes(look into her eyes)
and asked her to (and asked her to)
be my valentine(be my valentine)...
Hahas, still gt somemore :P
Very Romantic ah....hahas, juz kidding xD
Loving fwendz and family in my heart, tt's where i'll hold them till the very end,
for a kiss may end our lives and may we sleep in peace..
K TT was totally random (TTM-To The Max) hahas..
Well yeah i'm part of the camp craft competition in Npcc, Sir was like it's a very BIG thing
and only happens once in two years yeah, and he said tt he'd promote us i reank instantly if we were in the top ten in singapore, it's hard yeah..
We're to do Flagstaff, Basar, and pioneering all these in just 12 minutes!!! Man, we've to work dam hard, other sch's they can put up their flagstaffs in juz 2 minutes, while we take 15! (our firt try) We have to work dam and freaking hard to accomplish our goal.... we have to do our very best...
Labels: ♥ is in the air, can eu smell it ?
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Tuesday, December 15, 2009 @ 2:23 PM
Well today is juz like any other average day, told him how i really felt, scared though... wat if he does nt feel the same way ?? well juz hv to wait, did prawns then did the dishes, now sitting here, later gotta hv to help mmy wif cleaning and all then later in the evening have to go to church, duty for The Simbang Gabi eucharist. ...Well i dun really noe wat to say right now....
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Thursday, December 10, 2009 @ 9:01 PM
Hey:D i have nt updated for like ages! Hahas, was kinda busy , yes i noe i'm saying the same thing again and again.. Well tt is thee fact ;)Well my mum had been taking orders for pineapple tarts frm her fwendz. In total we have 1500 to do !! MAN tt is really alot :P
Woke up early today morning measured the flour and butter for mummy for the tarts. I think i screwed up wif the butter, hahahs i muz hv been daydreaming when i was weighing it. WTH!
Yup tt made work alot more difficult for my mum, so i made sure i measured the butter correctly for the next set :D and guess wat? i did! Yeah MaRaLene XD
Hahahs, went to church later in the evening at 4, for Dancing :P
Man i miss the days dancing, soo stress releaving, lol.
Actually it is, to let ur mind be free and juz follow the dude/guy hu is leading you :) I was like shocked when i walked into the room as most or almost all of them were sec 1's, they're like soo enthusiastic i'll say, funny part was tt when father turned on the music the girls(sec 1's)sit in a straightline waiting for the boys to come and ask them for the dance, while the boys (servers/sec 1's) juz stood and stoned, then father stoped the music and asked the guys to go ask the gurls to dance, well eu see when it comes to dancing eu can really blame the boys if you feel bored :P hahas, well days juz gt lighter and rolled the troubles down my shoulder, i let it go even though it lingers, i dun wanna talk bout it to anyone, coz i noe tt i'm ok and tt i will be. It's life.
Life's a climb but the view is great :D
Labels: Muackz ....♥
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Thursday, November 26, 2009 @ 3:17 PM
My lips like sugar XD !! Hahas juz kidding, well i've been really busy lately, so i could'nt update my blog.. Well went to church today morning to do rehersals for the KinG and I thing.. We had to Perform infront of father t to see and check and correct our mistakes... Well yeah it's like "Scene 1 take 10! " . But it was still kinda fun hahas, then after practice wif father, we rehersed at the church carpark and tried to make it look swift.. Julius is like the king and the rest of us are like the so called servents at the begining and the narrators..Well the real event is like tmr, evening at 7.30 but we've to be there like 2 plus...
And after the presentation we've to stay back in church to help wif the cleaning up, so it'd take kinda long, and we've to so called camp out in church :) good point. the bad point is tt on saturday morning i've my church ministry's cleaning up .... Uff, it's like soo tiring!!
Ok tt is chap 1 of my book, 2nd is NEW MOON!!
I'm gonna watch it wif Faz, Aj, and faie, ..
Can't wait for it :D Taylor is like freaking HOt for a 17 yr old, chuckles :P
Hahas, well i'm nt always jumpy and feeling happy eu noe, this gurl has also a sad and dark side..
1. I've a freaking zit on my forehead..
2.I'm nt spending enough time wif my family...
3.Feel like eatin Magnum !!
4.Wanna noe wats wrong wif my life!!
Yes, this soo called bez fwend or person i shall nt name hu is killing me little by little man, it's like eu noe a vampire sucking out my blood, no!! i''m nt over-reacting...
I wanna forget this person but it's kinda difficult... Well guess it's part and parcel of my life right?..
Btw i really like the colors on the lips :P sooo sweet !! hahas :D